Realising I have been a bad Christian!!

Hey my lovelies.

I have been having a lot of heart to hearts with my self over how much I have let my faith slip away from me. With different excuses for not going to church.. Yes I want to find a new church but that means actually getting out and doing it not just talking about it. The worst thing about having been so sick for so long it allowed me to have an excuse for not going out and trying to find somewhere I could find myself again.

This past few weeks have been the hardest of my life and it has encouraged me to pull so much closer to God and I know that with out God in my life and my heart I cannot get through this time. I was out shopping on Friday and I decided to go in to my old favourite shop because there is so much there that can help in times like this. The first thing I did was go and pick out some new music, I bought a 3 cd collection of Praise and Worship music and as I type I am listening to one of my most favourite songs 'Coming Back to the Heart of Worship' which really could not be anymore fitting for right now.

I had forgotten how much comfort and love being close to God gives. I may have let myself slide but my love never went away, I always knew in the back of my head that I was not being who I truly am. So I have decided that I am going to do more with my blogs and vlogs to do with my faith. I have always been the type of person that wanted people to know I was a Christian just by me being me and seeing that I am still a normal person I just live for God. I let that slide and I am so annoyed I did, but we are not perfect humans and we all make mistakes it is how we decide to fix it that matters.

So from now on, I will spend time reading the Bible more, I will get back to my Bible studies that I so love, I will sing more and praise more. Most of all I will remember to pull on God for Strength and Hope.

I know many of you guys reading this may not understand why I posted it, but I guess I wanted to find a way to shout from the rooftops to my Lord and Saviour that I am coming home! I know where I belong and that is close to His throne!!

I will chat to you all soon.

Love you all, God Bless. xxx